2 months 20 day without u

Already 8.04pm..Baru je lepas solat..alhamdulillah..syukur pd NYA coz masih beri kesempatan menikmati hidup & segala nikmatnya..I'm still at my workstation..opis dah senyap sunyi..td kebisingan my colluages main ping pong mengejutkan lamunan aku..n now MP3 Dygyta "tak mungkin melepasmu" buat aku suddenly touching..tak semena2 teringat pada dia yg jauh..

hari nie byk sgt pk..like no mood to work..Like loneliness surrounding me..

What i'm thinking about actually??

My life? My Career? My family? yes part of it..

Hmm macam2 pk dis lately..tp yg buat amat jiwa kacau..

My only one Sayang..

dia yang mencuri hati selama ni..after long wait..

After a few reject..

Him that taught me what meaning of luv..



hmm..baru 2 months 20 day he's far away from me..

tapi tak tau napa..macam lama gilerr dia g..

Maybe i truly miss him badly

This lately..i dunno y..i'm feel kinda miss him so so so bad

lagi bile byk problem camnie..dugaan demi dugaan yg dtg silih berganti

Sometimes i feel give-up but i have to be strong..even rasenya every single day airmata jd kwn baik..bukan saja nak nangis but it's getting worst..& my tears is the only one solution to make me calm.

nak mengadu?? pada siapa??

kawan2??? hmm kawan2 masing bz ngan life masing2..lagi2 yg dah kawen..sume mcm disappeared..dah tak igt kawan dia nie..kdg2 aku seakan merajuk hati dgn dorg..

kawan2 baru?? hemm..tak boleh nak diharap..baru jek menangis sgt teruk kerana mereka yg ku sangkakan "kawan" betray aku..betul..amat payah nak cari sahabat sejati di dunia nie..

my ekhram?? hmm..since he sailing sgt payah nak mengadu apatah lg bermanje dgn dia..
bile dapat call aku rasakan macam dapat "permata" yg sgt berharga..this few days i try to call him but i really sad coz he cannot be reached..maybe kat laut lepas agaknya..

terfikir..ingat ke dia kat Honey dia nie??

terfikir..masihkan sayang itu membara macam dulu..

terlalu byk igauan buruk dis lately..termimpi-mimpi DIA..

Sometimes dah lena tido pon tersedar & terfikirkan dia..teruk kan??



apa yg buat ME sedey?? I dunno..but I think my life seems so miserable since he been gone..

Bukan tak faham career dia..bukan tak sggp hadapi dugaan cinta PJJ nie..

bukan! bukan!

since i accept him to be my part of life..I know i have to be strong..I have to avoid that negative feeling which always make me sad & sad again..

I dont want any negative feeling came into this relationship!

yat..u have to be strong & Stronger babe..



I never lie myself that i need him more than words..

I really do love him much!!

Being apart from him sometimes make me feel like dying

Like no motivational at all

But i have make up my mind

I have to be firm with my decision

No turning back..


Sayang..
This entry for u..

Even u far away from me
I promise to u & Myself
I will be right here waiting for u..no matter how hopeless..no matter how hard..
Till death do us part..This i promise u my dear..

Yours truly,
Honey
8.31pm
My lovely worksation
HR Dept PBLT